1:13 am 9/3/07

because i can never find the perfect words to describe what i want to say.
because i can never figure out what emotion actually makes my heart go nuts
and beat against the cage.
because i'm tired of dedicating phrases, thoughts, words, lyrics, songs,
and other mumbo jumbo to anyone and everyone that passes my way.

i'll always be that same ol' girl. waiting.
yeah. that's right. just waiting.
waiting?
waiting.

and no matter how many times i tell myself i won't let me do that to me anymore
i let me down and me falls down and me breaks down once more.
because i was waiting.

for what? who fucking knows.

and sometimes i just want to understand why i do things the way i do.
and sometimes i wonder why i wonder, wish, and think so much like i do.
and sometimes i hate the things i do.
don't you?